Rawr… I’d say I have been busy but…

That’s a lie, or is it? I have been very fortunate enough to keep my day job and work from home. I’d like to think that i’m talented and good at what I do, which I am, but I am also extremely, EXTREMELY lucky.

What have you been up to lately? I know at the beginning I was all like running the numbers and trying to convince myself that this pandemic was really nothing to worry about. Now, yea experience tempers us doesn’t it? We look back and see how naive were, or are. We understand that what we thought was tradition, or history, sometimes is a brand of hate.

What do you do with those things that have wonderful memories but are based in hate and oppression? Do you get rid of them? Change everything? Or do you keep the reminders around to remember the lesson? Such a double edged sword. Myself I do not do hate in any form. I accept everyone as they are. Everyone has a level of f upness. I’ve also noticed lately that i’m a hippie. Bohemian, flower loving, etc and so on.

anyway much love from your strange duck,

May 1st

I have not written in a while. Mainly because my mother always said, “if you can’t say anything nice, say nothing at all”. I have been very frustrated with the way thing have been. Let me give you my thinking and then you can pound sand because, this is how I feel :d

1. COVID strains have been around for a very long time. And, most people have at least one strain somewhere in their body. Which means this is nothing new. The problem comes in this is a difficult strain. From my understanding imagine a normal strep infection, this strain would be the drug resistant super bug we hear about all the time.
2. SARS and the Flu seem to be a bigger problem than COVID, they kill more people. Right? If you are a numbers person yes. If you are in healthcare, not so much. This strain this sickness, is amazingly able to take a perfectly healthy person no matter what age and knock them on a ventilator.
3. Everyone is rushing to get a vaccine so we can get back to normal. I urge caution, Slow and steady wins the race fast and rushed you break your leg, or end up killing more people. Just be careful please!!
4. COVID has killed people I love, sickened family members and scared the shit out of me. But, I have decided not to let it rule my life. I don’t want to live in fear. So I will sew me a mask and start living life outside my house.

I really hope everyone reading this is well and good.

A note about Depression

I really don’t know what your life is like, but mine is a bit complicated. I have a chemical imbalance, which makes me very weak to depression. I have to be very very careful. And, since I have this battle and I have found a few things that work for me, maybe they will work for you, while you battle Cabin Fever.

1. Exercise. I have to, HAVE to work out at least once a day, more if I can. When the world was different I used to swim, now I bounce on a ball and Ride an exercise bike.
2. Blog. The more I write on here the better I feel. I take a chance putting my thoughts out there for the world to see, but I find it very positive in my well being. Just getting it out helps. I also Journal.
3. Keep a Planner. Write down what you do so you can reflect and understand you just did not stay in your PJ’s all day.
4. Put your shoes on. Even if you don’t go anywhere. It helps with a mind set.

These are basics, let me know if you have any to add just comment below.

If the shoe fits….

Indeed you should buy it in every color, that is the old adage isn’t it? I think it’s perfect. And, for a break of all the death, chaos, anger , etc, I really am going to talk shoes. Women’s shoes at that.

I have a super love of sneakers, I have probably 10 pairs in assorted styles and colors from Chuks to Air’s, I love something that hugs my feet like a pillow. But, I have also come to the conclusion that after this social aggression, I am going to wear SHOES.

I mean sling back, high heeled, wedged bottom, spiked, kitten toting shoes. And, while i’ve always, always worn black, I’m done with the funeral. I am NOW going to sport some color in my wardrobe (trust me that’s another post), and wear shoes that flatter my ten best little digits.

My Grandma loves shoes, she worked in the Kids assembly lines, then later in the shoe dept of Wal Mart. She had probably hundreds of shoes. 7 to a 7 1/2 (i’m a 7 to 8 1/2 I have a high arch and a wide foot.) was her size, and she indeed had tons of colorful shoes. I want shoes like that, and now it’s time to start getting them.

What are you favorites? What was your mom’s favorites? How about your BFF’s favorites, leave a comment below and let me know EVEN if it is a old pair of Kids. And, where does one get wonderful deals on shoes. I DO have to know!! DISH. spill and DM if you need to!!

Ciao,

What I tell myself

When I was young and going though hard things, I told myself to get up, and educate myself. So, I read and I got though those hard things and grew up. About 6 months ago, I decided my body was a mess. I got on a treadmill and started running 3 miles a day, then switched to swimming a mile and a half. I would get to that point where I would be down, and wanting to give up. I would visualize myself crying laying down wanting to quit. Then I would imagine myself, my soul yelling at the crying figure GET UP, GET UP, you can do this. YOU ARE ALMOST THERE, GET UP. And, my little crying self would get up and finish and feel so much better for doing it. Silly Story? Perhaps.

Isn’t this how we all feel, like giving up, blaming everyone else for this mess? Why not instead of pointing fingers we GET UP educate and go on? It’s hard, damn right, anything else would not be worth it. You can lay in the ditch and scream and point fingers but, you will have to get up eventually and educate yourself. Why not now? Sure sitting in the ditch is easy, but, it might kill you. Don’t do that!

GET UP!!!

How do you handle a new world paradigm?

I’m not really sure, I don’t think we are at a point as a civilization to where we can adequately scope this question. We are still in the messy part where we are trying to figure out who is where, and exactly what the problems are. We know the crisis yes, but do we know anything besides that. I don’t think so. I think we are trying to get a head of it and are starting to make progress but, we have a while before we are really going to know what the time length on things are.

Myself, i’m trying to continue on with my life with as little interruption as possible. I am very glad I decided to take a semester off college. I only have three classes left and i’m glad I can worry about them next fall, rather than through this. It’s amazing how sometimes we make the right decisions and don’t even get it till a long time later.

❤

Positive Thinking

“The way we think dictates our behavior”..Pastor Richard Young said these words this morning. As soon as they were in my ears I felt like I had been hit over the head with a clue. It’s true, a very, very wonderful friend asked me, “How are you dealing with this?”. She asked because with the news comes anxiety, hate, fear and everything else, along with good information. What’s the balance. I told her I look once a day and try not to become overwhelmed. I protect my self the best I can and look for the positive things. I’m not very successful if i’m honest. But, the point is I KEEP trying . So here are my tips for trying to keep yourself from falling apart.

1. LIMIT your exposure to the news. you do NOT have to watch every news conference, read an article instead of watching so you re not swayed by the emotions that are playing out on TV
2. Find something that makes you laugh, and watch, read, enjoy it at LEAST once a day, maybe more.
3. Eat healthy, try and limit (note I said TRY) bad things, comfort foods, but seriously we all have to cope with the odd Oreo or cocktail.
4. Seek professional help. There ARE people who will help you, if you find yourself overwhelmed use Teladoc, or some equally wonderful program which will put you in touch with someone who will listen.
5. Do not cut your hair we are none of us that desperate …. yet

❤

Social Distancing

Does anyone know how hard this is for me? I seriously am a hugger. It’s so sad :/, personal contact is one of those things that makes me feel connected to others. So while i’m in the ninth circle of hell those who don’t like touching are having the time of their lives. What do I say to that? It can’t last forever. And, when this is over, be prepared i’m comin for my cuddles!!

Online Shopping

Quick! Show of hands of those who have not bought something online in the last 7 days, what no one? Yea well me either, I am doing my retail therapy from my couch. Some are necessities this is true, but some are not. I am trying to what what I spend, I think we all are. I am also trying to support those who have Etsy shops simply because, this might be something that they normally do on the side, but now it’s their only way to make ends meet. As the lawmakers battle out help for all of us on the government floor, we are still holding on in our homes.

And I Relax

With the changes in the world happening so rapidly, there is one thing that was left behind. My magazines, those which were published and mailed before last week. The last little vestige of the time before the flip! I wonder what popular culture will dub this? We have named things after wars, countries they began in. Are we really going to call this the Chinese Virus? Why don’t we call it COVID-19 what it really is? I know that 1918 had the Spanish Flu, and I wonder if there was a stigma then about that name? Polio, I wonder where it started? Smallpox? Going back how about the Black Death, Sweating sickness, or the Neapolitan disease, oops that was named after an area. Makes you wonder.

You ponder that and let me know, I’m going to sit back and relax and read my magazines.